Well my friends, as you know this blog is about ups and downs, triumphs and disappointments and today I did a disappointing thing - not only did I let myself down but I feel like I let the people who have been cheering me on down too. I have been suffering from major cravings all week - I should never have let myself eat the stuff I did on Saturday because I think I'm still just not at a strong enough place yet to abstain when I need to and by letting my body have some of those treats, it just wants more and more -so that plan definitely backfired. I know now that I need to keep on the straight and narrow 90% of the time for the rest of my life.
So today....the cravings were hitting and its like it takes over my whole body and I went out and bought....DORITIOS and I ate too many. I ate them along side my chopped chicken and veggie salad. My brain was like scarf down these chips now....my heart was heavy afterwards...it gives me that few minutes of pure enjoyment and then its not worth it afterwards. I immediately threw the rest of the chips out so that I wouldn't be tempted again tomorrow. Now I feel so mad at myself and even though I worked out at home this morning my first instinct is to work out again but I know thats how I can get myself into trouble - I can't obsess - whats done is done, move on...drink lots of water. I'm going to snack on my leftover salad in a little bit as my snack and for supper I'm making my homemade chicken noodle soup which is clean and healthy. I'm not even going to make the Pillsbury buns with it that my kids love so much because I know in the state I'm in today I can't say no. So lots of veggies for the rest of the day and then tomorrow is a new day. I don't want to get on this slippery slope of eating cheats a couple times a day here and there because I know they add up.
I'm excited to get to Florida even more now and be outside a ton in the fresh air and bbq a ton and eat seafood and veggies. We are going to my favourite seafood restaurant on Saturday night called the Crab and Fin and I love getting fresh crab there....yummy..I can taste it now (minus the butter of course, just nice and steamed right out of the shell) I just need a change from what I'm doing here and a good dose of Vitamin C/D or whatever you get from the sun.
I have packed all my spices that I use regularly so that I don't have to buy more down there. Ive made a big tupperware full of Avah's healthy unsalted trail mix for her to snack on while we are away. I have my grocery list ready to hit Publix once we get to Florida. I'm pretty much packed. Had my spray tan this afternoon which by the way I hate getting, I feel so sticky and stinky afterwards and I don't like to shower it off until the next morning but its worth it after the shower. Nothing looks worse than a cute sundress and stick white legs. Got my nails done today. Tomorrow is pedicure, waxing and some last minute errands. And then we are off....can't come soon enough.
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